Sorry!

Ok, so a lot has happened over this month so far, and I have been focusing on other things. So I am now a student liaison between my college and Voice FM radio station, and content creator for their social media. I was also live on air one lunch time, which was pretty scary and I didn't know what to say. Luckily I had the presenter Jon leading the conversation, and I was soon a bit more relaxed and chatty.

I am now part of the editorial team of the college newspaper, and I have my own section called "Megan Meets", and I interview different people. I first interviewed (coincidentally another) Megan Thomas, who enrols students and teachers at my college. She is also an indie singer, known as Mega Thomas, originally from her band Thomas Tantrum. After I interviewed her, I listened back to the recording and wrote a kind of article/review and profile of her, in a balanced formal and informal tone.

Oh, and I have quit my job at the chip shop, and I now work in a closer chippy with better pay and less hours so I have time to focus on college, Voice FM and the college newspaper. So I would say things are going pretty well.

Stoptober

Yes, I know it isn't time for Stoptober yet, but it's only a week away guys.

I am a smoker, have been for about a year. I mainly started because of all the stress from my GCSE exams, revision etc. and I want to stop because it is a horrible habbit. I don't want to smoke myself to death, or smoke for so long my fingers and teeth are stained yellow and my skin ages quicker.

So I have agreed with my college, that I will do Stoptober, and blog about it throughout the month. Now, they want me to blog about it on there college website, which is fine, but it won't stop me from blogging to you guys about it.

Plus, if I blog on the college website they give me 3 months free gym membership and £40 love2shop vouchers so can't complain really can I?

Anyhow, I wish everyone out there who are joining the best of luck, I know I'm going to need all the support I can get!

If only...

Do you ever think to yourself when you wake up in the morning- 'If only I didn't have college' 'If only I didn't have work' 'If only I didn't have to wake up...'

I think that every day. I never really get a lie in, thats what happens when you beg your mum for a dog, promising her you will walk it every single morning. To be honest, I don't really sleep at all. You see, during the day, my mind is going at 0.1mph, but at night it's as if it is never going to stop. When I want to go to sleep, I can't. But when I want to do something productive with my life, it's like my brain goes in slow motion, and that's when I tend to drift off.

Weird don't you think? If only my brain would let me go to sleep at night, and be wide awake during the day. It shouldn't be the other way round. It's not right.

My brain is a strange thing. Even I know that. I reckon some wires have been crossed up in there, no no, I'm sure of it. It's like right now, I'm sat at college writing this post because I simply don't know what else to do. My mind is blank. It's not like I haven't got anything to do though. I have got work that I should be getting on with, but I have gotten to the point in life where I think- what's the point?

I know that the harder I work at college will give me great results etc. but what am I going to do with them? I don't really know what I am going to do with my life after college. Should I go to university, or do an apprenticeship, or just stay full time at the chippy? It feels like no matter what I will choose to do in life, I am going to disappoint someone in my family. I know I want to be a journalist, but it scares me that I have gone down one path for the rest of my life... I can't think of anything worst than staying in the same job all your life.

Life isn't about routine and strategy. It's about getting out there, seeing the world and all of it's beauty. I wish I had wings, so I could fly away, and not come back for a while. I just want pure freedom, but that's not going to happen. Guess I just have to stick to what I have chosen, and actually see it through.

I guess an introduction is in order

Hello readers! Well, that's if I have any. Anyway, I'm Megan, just an average teenage girl aspiring to be a journalist for the BBC one day. I currently attend Southampton City college, and I am in my second year of studying BTEC Level 3 Journalism. I could go on and tell you everything I have done, but that would bore you.

You're probably expecting some great, beautiful girl to be behind this blog who is popular and great. Truth is, I'm not great, nor am I beautiful. There is nothing about me that stands out from all the other teenage girls out there. I'm kind of in a shadow. I don't like to be in the spot light, I just like to do well in college and work. Oh, I work in a fish and chip shop by the way guys, exciting stuff eh?

Ok, so the reason as to why I set up this blog is for one main reason- college. Long story cut short- I have to blog about Stoptober to receive vouchers and free gym membership. I guess it's good though, because now I have somewhere to put all my thoughts down too. I don't know how long I will keep this up for, as I am totally pants at keeping a diary (would you class this as keeping a diary too? I dunno).

Anyhow, I'm sorry if I'm not what your expecting. I'm sorry if I don't make you laugh, or make you think hard about life or some other sensual feeling. I'm just simply me. I wasn't born to please everyone. I wasn't born to be some hilarious comedian to entertain a crowd, or some gorgeous model to advertise designer clothes. I was born to be who I want. And all I want is a happy life- although I wouldn't say no to all the luxuries!